Waking up in the morning is the best thing in the world. If it didn’t happen you sure won’t be reading this right now. Especially when you have something other than your day at work to look forward too. Today, I woke up to a pleasant day but my mood wasn’t as pleasant so I decided to go hand out at the beach just a little just to figure things out in my mind and put things in perspective.

...taking large doses of silence....

...taking large doses of silence....

I miss my essential person.
The one guy I seriously believe I can’t breathe without. One hour away from him yesterday and I started spiraling into a “I need to go shopping” frenzy….almost as if I were a shopaholic I dashed to the clothing store and I couldn’t believe I ended up at the end of that road knowing I had a vast array of other venues I could’ve explored. At the end of my day I had spent $650 on a few items I barely need and the guilt is getting harder and harder to live with as I go through my day today.
Well, what do you really do, when you just need to see the person who makes you smile from ear to ear all of the time you guys are together? But you just can’t….
***I just go to the beach and sit there until I can’t hear anything but the ocean against the shore. Until all my thoughts disappear and I become unaware of why I went there to begin with.

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